I knew you had a flame in your heart,

Your cold cold heart. I wrote this at 12 midnight because i couldn't stop psychoanalyzing this person and i was losing sleep over it, which was just not okay. This is someone i love to hate and hate to love.

A Letter to _____:

Truly i am saddened to need to write this down at all. But you have problems that have been saddening and plaguing my mind every time i see you. Yesterday you called me ugly. You said life was better when i was absent. I am not denying that i have problems too. However, yours are deeply rooted. Your disrespect for your mother came from seeing a father disrespect and belittle her, and she didn't stand up for herself. This hurt you deeply, teaching you a general non-appreciation for women, leading you to copy your fathers ill behavior. Your father showed you very little love and you have always wanted your mother to stand up for herself, though in a twisted way, and you push and you push and you disrespect and she doesn't fight back, and this makes you angry. The imbalance between your masculine and feminine sides have led you to be a tad homophobic and sad because no one can be secure in themselves when masculine and feminine are not aligned. You weren't loved enough as a young child, leading you to have a low self worth, manifesting itself in the need to belittle me, to make me feel your pain, your suffering, to bring me down to your level, when in reality the "ugly" words you speak to me are words you feel about yourself. And with each word your soul gets blacker. Words have an undeniable energy, that goes out into the world and touches who it is meant for, just touches, but for those who speak the words it is absorbed, and ingrained into your being, your soul and slowly, you fall into a pattern, a pattern of negativity started when you were an unloved child, desiring his loving father and mother above all else. I can see the anger and the sadness you possess, in your jaw, your cold eyes, the harshness of your mouth and what comes out of it, and the way even your smile and laugh seem cruel and unforgiving. A person so unbalanced may strive for fame, money and even happiness, because they equate this with money, but even if they find it, because they are unbalanced, they will still hate themselves, still be seeking something they can't find... unless...

They break the pattern.

-Nice Words

-Love

-Kindness

And for your sake, and the world's, i hope you succeed in breaking this awful pattern

Sincerely, Gabriella