what happens...

I need to know what happens when you can only rely on yourself. It is a feeling i have felt for a while. My parents are too... whatever the hell goes on in their minds. It is a very lonely feeling knowing that all you have to rely on is yourself. But what if you don't trust yourself? I am not feeling very optimistic at the moment, so the answer to that question is "you're screwed". I want to know where all the pain and screwed up-ness started. Pandora's Box maybe? I don't know. I just wish i could keep all these problems from affecting me.

So.... POSSE :D

I have made it to the final round for the POSSE scholarship for Colby College and i hope and hope and hope that i get the scholarship. That is all i can think about right now!!!! woah.... this is like a dream.